Tomorrow I will be weighing myself and officially starting my journey to losing weight in a HEALTHY way. I DO need to lose weight, but I need to do it right.
I cried myself to sleep last night, I felt so awful about myself.
I had a long day today, I had to plan carefully what I was going to eat because I was in situations where I could have easily eaten a lot of unhealthy things.
I'm still in kind of a shaky mood so I kind of just want to post my calorie breakdown and be done for the night. <3
Calories
250 -- Baked french fries;
2 Eastern Russett potatoes cut into pieces and baked: 220 calories
2 tbsp. of Heinz tomato ketchup: 30 calories
180 -- Betty Crocker Wild Blueberry Muffin
200 -- Chicken;
Marinaded in Wishbone Fat Free Italian Dressing and grilled
70 -- Salad;
2 cups of Romaine lettuce: 40 calories
1/4 cup of cucumber: 5 calories
2 tbsp. Wishbone Fat Free Italian dressing: 15 calories
10 sprays of Wishbone Balsamic Salad Spritzer: 10 calories
(The salad was a side to the chicken)
140 -- Stewart's Light Cookies 'n Cream Ice Cream;
1/2 cup, I still think I'm making progress.
100 -- Cheerios
140 -- Honey Maid Graham Crackers (w/ 5g whole grain)
150 - Subway 6" (half, so...3")
Total calories consumed: 1230
Exercise
100 -- Walking for 20 minutes
Total calories burned: 100
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Net calories: 1130
Evaluation: I guess today was successful, except for the 30 calories over the 1200 calorie goal. BUT, for 30 calories, I'm not going to beat myself up like I used to. I'm more hopeful for the upcoming week when I start noticing each Monday whether or not I'm making progress on the scale or not. Upping my calorie intake, as I have, will cause me to not lose weight as fast as I used to, which sucks, but I'm ok with it if it means being healthier and keeping the ones I love (or really just my boyfriend) happy about what I'm doing.
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Monday, July 19, 2010
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- Sadie Astoria
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- I am recovering from an eating disorder. I used to have a blog that tracked my ED and weight, and then disappeared. I wanted no part in the online ED world, and I knew I needed to recover. Now, I'm back, and I really want to keep track of my recovery. I'm essentially doing it alone, with only the help of my boyfriend, and I feel like I need you all to keep me in check, too. Not only do I have to make sure I don't eat too much, but I have to make sure I don't eat too LITTLE. However, I still want to lose weight, and I want to do it the healthy way. Maybe my journey will help some of you who are struggling with the decision to recover.
Goals:
*Eat 1200 calories per day
*Eat mostly whole grains, veggies, and fruit
*Exercise at least 30 minutes per day
*NO. THINSPO.
Weight tracker:
SW: Will be determined 7/19
CW: -- GW1: 140
GW2: 135
GW3: 130
GW4: 125
UGW: 120
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1 comments:
I wish I were you. I have an ED too, and I used to eat like you and I lost weight whenever I wanted. Unfortunately, my body got used to eating this way, and I still wanted to lose weight and I felt so bad at that time so I stopped eating dinner. Now, I don't even eat for 500 calories a day and still put on weight.
So keep on doing this, and never EVER do the same mistake as me..
I really admire your strong will and I hope one day I will manage to recover... So everytime you're sad about having an ED, think it could be worse (like me)
Your will remembers mine at the beggining of my ED but I think after almost 2 years being sick, it becomes harder and harder to struggle against calories even if I still want to be really skinny.
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